june 27, 2008
days melt by like careless thoughts. one moment i'm in new york, rain drops easing their way onto the sidewalk as i talk with my mom on the phone (a rare occurrence.. the conversation, not the rain). as my emotions well up in me, i talk to her like i've never expected to talk to her before and a part of me finally clicks into place. i'm standing at the top of the stairway to penn station, travellers passing by me oblivious to the enormity of my conversation. i breathe a sigh of gratitude when we finally finish talking, thankful for the courage to change my life.
the next day i call my father. it's a strange conversation, which shouldn't surprise me. we've always had awkward conversations. as i talk to him, i let go of my past and i let go of the expectations i have of my dad. mostly. it's not complete, so i suppose we have more to talk about. interestingly enough, he says almost exactly the same thing my mom had said to me the previous day.. "don't worry, everything will be alright." i suppose they're big worriers.
i close my eyes and it seems like the next minute i'm racing to philadelphia. new jersey and rosemont, illinois quickly follow in succession. days melt and nights freeze.
the next day i call my father. it's a strange conversation, which shouldn't surprise me. we've always had awkward conversations. as i talk to him, i let go of my past and i let go of the expectations i have of my dad. mostly. it's not complete, so i suppose we have more to talk about. interestingly enough, he says almost exactly the same thing my mom had said to me the previous day.. "don't worry, everything will be alright." i suppose they're big worriers.
i close my eyes and it seems like the next minute i'm racing to philadelphia. new jersey and rosemont, illinois quickly follow in succession. days melt and nights freeze.